There seems to be at least one moment of every single day that I cry out, “Lord! I just don’t know if I can do all of this another day! This is SO hard!”
Caring for a child with special needs isn’t a cake-walk. It’s a full time job. And when you have 6 other children looking to you for care as well….it’s…just…a…LOT!
BUT it’s brought light and understanding to 2 Corinthians 12:10 – So I am well pleased with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, and with difficulties, for the sake of Christ; for when I am weak [in human strength], then I am strong [truly able, truly powerful, truly drawing from God’s strength].
I didn’t care for that verse. At all. I mean, it’s really not a warm cozy, feel-good verse. My flesh doesn’t always feel like “counting it all joy” when my son is throwing a tantrum and unable to communicate his needs to us. I don’t want to feel “well pleased” with my weakness when I am spoon-feeding my almost 5-yr-old each and every day. BUT, I am learning how to fall back into my Father’s lap and draw strength. I’m learning more and more how to daily be dependent on HIS strength rather than my own. And I’m learning to take it one day at at time instead of being overwhelmed and consumed with the big picture. His mercies really are new every morning. He’s working. I know He has a plan. And my job is to simply trust Him.
“Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds.” ~James 1:2
I just came across your page by random curiosity of what a VP shunt is and saw a picture of little Judah and started reading your blogs. They are very inspirational. You are a wonderful strong mother with a beautiful loving family. I pray to God to bless Judah and your family in abundance. It’s the first time I’ve openly ever prayed for strangers but I feel so strongly about Gods love for Judah and your family. Little angels among us. Strength and perseverance. God bless from South Africa